Sharing in the midnight

God, why i became a crybaby now? i dont like it, God. i wanna be the old me.
Dieu, vous savez certainement si je suis une personne qui difficile à dire au point? surtout avec I'état que I'homme ne marche pas toujours vouloir accepter mes raisons presque.ça me rend plus parasseux d'être courageux au point. si je disais 'Im Okay' si elle m'a montré que j'étais un menteur, Dieu? J'ai juste ne veux pas d'un débat. i l'éviter. de puis la fin de celui-ci presque troujours nous conduire à des querelless.
Sincément Dieu, j'ai blessé parse qu'il m'a appelé un 'menteur'.. trés mal.. puisque je vis, à peine je me sens mal come ça. ll ya quelques seminess en effet je me sentais mal, mais pas comme ça mauvais. et le plus me faire vraiment mal, c'est causé par la même personne :( une personne qui i amour pour cette fois-ci. ce que je dois faire, Dieu? se seire et dire 'Im Okay' plus si il dit que im un menteur nouveau? mois un im côté blessé, mais de l'autre côté je ne peux pas et je ne veux.. c'est un homme bon, je pense. et je ne sais pas qu'il est vraiment mon compagnon ou pas.. je ne sais pas aussi c'est votre procès ou sera d'un autre..
Honnêtement Dieu, je déteste être patient :( il me semble que je dois pleurer.. mais je sais je devrais l'essayer, je crois que vous me guider dans la personne du patient :)
Dieu, aujourd'hui ma gorge est vraiment malade. c'est causé par i retene les larmes devant des gens. je ne veux pas pleurer Dieu, je n'ens voulons.. mais après je sais qu'ils vont dormir, il s'avère que je coudnt freinée lui plus.. soir im pleurer.. et je ne sais doit le partager avec dans ce minuit..
Dieu, parce merci vous voulez entendre ma rogne.. maintenant, je me sens plus mieux. et j'espère que je peux aller dormir plus vite, playin avec mon rêve, alors demain je sais ce que je dois faire.. mais je doute mon malheur sera disparaissent tandis que je dors plus tard, ou peut-être demain, ou demain suivant, ou ma vie.. mais ce n'est pas dire que je veux venger, Dieu.
as i know, you know me so well! and you will understand what my point is whithout i say to the point.. i love you in every situation, God <3
Thankyou God! :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012!!

today is january 1st 2012, it's time to say 'HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012!' i hope the best in everything for everyone in the world :D i hope everything will be better for the next :D

firstly, i wanna tell you about my new year eve at twinni's home..

yesterday, dina texted me, she letted me to her house because she made BBQ party. initially, i doubt to come, but i think i had to went there than just going to sleep in my purple room.

i arrived there at 6.30 pm.there are rico, krisma, dina and dita. then a few minutes later, bayu came. we prepared all of things we needed to grill.

suddenly, dita provied opinion to rent the horor movies. we all agreed, then i accompanied dita to go to ezy video to rent some horor movies. after we took a long time to choose, finally, our choosed fell on 4 horor movies. there are The Ring (english version), The Echoe, Sororoty Row, and Echoes Haunted.

when we got home, it turns out dito and jalu at home. then we began to grill a lot of sausage, meatball, squid, shrimp. also there are fried potatoes, and much more snakcs.

for grilled

few minutes later, adi came. we made a lot of food until we felt tired. after full, we decided to stop grill for a moment and we enjoyed the movies.the first movies we watched is  The Ring. suddenly yole and putra came, lauren, hendy, and frido followed behind.

The Ring had finished before we went to Bukit Kayangan, so we played second movie, The Echoe. we didnt realize that time showed us at 11.30, dita asked us, what time we would go to Bukit Kayangan. directly, all of we woke up and went there to see the fireworks :D

at Bukit Kayangan

seriously i told you that place is really crowded! and you know what?! i wonder to know the security of housing made commercialize this event -_- everyone who'll go there ought to buy the ticket in order to enter. okey, it's just intermezo. no problem.. all of we were payed by dito, because our money was left behind.

when we got in Bukit Kayangan, the fireworks began to fill the sky with their beautiful light <3 we enjoyed it together. didnt forget i also recorded the fireworks. what an exciting night!

one hours we were showed by the fireworks, people at that place one by one was gone. and we decided to go back twinnie's home to grill some food anymore because of hungreeeh... some of our continued watched the movies and the others grill made some food.

tonight is so much FUN :D

okay, that's all the story about my new year eve :)

the second point, i wanna tell you about my impression in 2011 and hopes in 2012

Impression 2011

2011, i got so much experiences. i cant tell it one by one, but the most important that i know is full of tears and fears. behind it all, i met my boyfie in 2011 and it makes me so cheerful :D

Hopes 2012

in generally i want this year going to be better than before. everything's going to be okay. no more much tears and fears.
specificly i wanna could graduate from Loyola Senior High School and became one of UGM's student communication bachellor of majority <3